Life has a way of triggering complete emotional breakdowns in me. Sometimes they even occur in front of girls I'm interested in, like this last one did. Here's basically how it went down:
"Hi, I'm Steve." Random charming comment or two. "I'd like to take you out some time." Best first date ever goes here. "You are pretty much the coolest girl ever. We need to go out again soon." Wonderful second date goes here. Cue emotional breakdown. "I'm basically crazy, and am scared to death of being alone forever. All my close friends are married, and I would love for nothing more than to be married also. Because of that, I try to start relationships way too quickly."
The middle details of this consist of her not really wanting a relationship right now, which I suspected from the start, but didn't want to be the case. But such is life. After my meltdown, I never expect people to react in a positive light. I mean, let's take this case. I knew this girl for a week before she found out I was crazy. How in the world would you react if this happened to you? Well she didn't run away warning everyone she knew to steer clear of me. Here's how that went down:
"You aren't crazy, you are just insecure. Why do you feel this way? Boy, it sure is unhealthy that you don't talk to you friends very often about this. What makes you think that? It really is ok that you are almost 24 and not married. I'm sorry that I caused all this." Objections on my part to it not being her fault. More chit chat about the whole thing, still. Embarrassing moment of dozing off an snoring in front of her.
I think this is the first time I have had this happen with someone I didn't know very well. All other times it has occurred with a good friend or someone I have been dating for a while. I was shocked to know that she still wanted to get to know me more. I mean, what kind of person does that? Good people do that. People who don't think you are crazy, despite evidence to the contrary. People who are willing to stick it out regardless of knowing there will be more hard times to come. Friends.
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