Why do we fall down, Bruce?
>> Saturday, August 9, 2008
Life has a way of triggering complete emotional breakdowns in me. Sometimes they even occur in front of girls I'm interested in, like this last one did. Here's basically how it went down:
"Hi, I'm Steve." Random charming comment or two. "I'd like to take you out some time." Best first date ever goes here. "You are pretty much the coolest girl ever. We need to go out again soon." Wonderful second date goes here. Cue emotional breakdown. "I'm basically crazy, and am scared to death of being alone forever. All my close friends are married, and I would love for nothing more than to be married also. Because of that, I try to start relationships way too quickly."
The middle details of this consist of her not really wanting a relationship right now, which I suspected from the start, but didn't want to be the case. But such is life. After my meltdown, I never expect people to react in a positive light. I mean, let's take this case. I knew this girl for a week before she found out I was crazy. How in the world would you react if this happened to you? Well she didn't run away warning everyone she knew to steer clear of me. Here's how that went down:
"You aren't crazy, you are just insecure. Why do you feel this way? Boy, it sure is unhealthy that you don't talk to you friends very often about this. What makes you think that? It really is ok that you are almost 24 and not married. I'm sorry that I caused all this." Objections on my part to it not being her fault. More chit chat about the whole thing, still. Embarrassing moment of dozing off an snoring in front of her.
I think this is the first time I have had this happen with someone I didn't know very well. All other times it has occurred with a good friend or someone I have been dating for a while. I was shocked to know that she still wanted to get to know me more. I mean, what kind of person does that? Good people do that. People who don't think you are crazy, despite evidence to the contrary. People who are willing to stick it out regardless of knowing there will be more hard times to come. Friends.
"Hi, I'm Steve." Random charming comment or two. "I'd like to take you out some time." Best first date ever goes here. "You are pretty much the coolest girl ever. We need to go out again soon." Wonderful second date goes here. Cue emotional breakdown. "I'm basically crazy, and am scared to death of being alone forever. All my close friends are married, and I would love for nothing more than to be married also. Because of that, I try to start relationships way too quickly."
The middle details of this consist of her not really wanting a relationship right now, which I suspected from the start, but didn't want to be the case. But such is life. After my meltdown, I never expect people to react in a positive light. I mean, let's take this case. I knew this girl for a week before she found out I was crazy. How in the world would you react if this happened to you? Well she didn't run away warning everyone she knew to steer clear of me. Here's how that went down:
"You aren't crazy, you are just insecure. Why do you feel this way? Boy, it sure is unhealthy that you don't talk to you friends very often about this. What makes you think that? It really is ok that you are almost 24 and not married. I'm sorry that I caused all this." Objections on my part to it not being her fault. More chit chat about the whole thing, still. Embarrassing moment of dozing off an snoring in front of her.
I think this is the first time I have had this happen with someone I didn't know very well. All other times it has occurred with a good friend or someone I have been dating for a while. I was shocked to know that she still wanted to get to know me more. I mean, what kind of person does that? Good people do that. People who don't think you are crazy, despite evidence to the contrary. People who are willing to stick it out regardless of knowing there will be more hard times to come. Friends.
4 comments:
"Cause I've got friends in looooow places where the whiskey......"
;) Hey Steve, if you're ever needin' some food, just let us know. Friends always have food for each other. ;)
she sounds like a real keeper, whether your holding her hand in a friendship way or a romantic way, people like that make the road of life a whole lot easier. :)
One of the things that attracted me to Gus the most was that he never thought I was "broken" he still takes all my emotional irrationalities (is that a word?) in stride and I love him for it.
I agree with darby arby she sounds like someone to hold on to.
P.S. our door is ALWAYS open to you, and Gus is a great person to talk to if you need a guys-night ...
Just ride it out Steve. Don't try to steer the waves, just stay on top and ride it out. If this isn't the big kahuna, swim out to meet the next one. You rock! Sorry I keep missing your calls, I'm really not ignoring you.
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